Faith
We all experience times of doubt in abilities, our environment, times when (the devil) you feel alone. These times are so strong that they make us forget all the past accomplishments and miracles that may have occurred. Lately we have experienced a miracle. Ms Jerrie, a long time friend of ours has accomplished great medical feats, all in less than a week, through the grace of God.
I have been experiencing more uneasiness lately that I could not put a finger on, since being asked to complete many questionnaires for the Cancer Survivorship program at Vandy, where they will propose a care plan for my life to me today. A program that I feel blessed to be able to participate in, thankful that they are offering it now, and wish that they would have offered it sooner. These questionnaire's made me feel unease….it seems on the surface that it is because they question your psychological feelings, but I felt as if that was really not the reason for my discomfort. I have been thinking about it on and off for weeks now, laughing at the questions, because they truly did not bother me, but something about the situation did. Last night Robert asked me one simple question that answered my unease, and I found peace. "In any of those questions did they ask you about your faith?"
Of course!!! That was it….I had let myself forget the very thing that when asked "What got me through cancer?" I have replied, FAITH. Those questions of Survivorship never talked about the true me, the me that allowed me and pushed me and carried me…to survive. Prayers, love, support, and Faith. When I awoke this morning I felt a lot better, and the first song I heard…I cried...well folks, God DOES talk to us we just have to listen.
I have always carried this book, a binder, through transplant, and for the past 4 years to all my oncology appts that I have had. It has the girls pictures on it from transplant time so I could look at them, and a copy of Ele's Thanksgiving blessing written at school from 1st grade, "I am thankful for God helping my Mom". I placed the book in the hope chest this morning. I now have a small new binder for my new journey. Thank you and God for the prayers that were heard and answered, and the Faith that abounds. Oh and that song….well here it is…may God Bless you too…
What Faith Can Do
Kutless
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
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